wishing for happiness..
17 Apr 2012 Scrie un comentariu
in Fără categorie Etichete:being stupid, come back to me, happiness, little ones, love, loving you, rain, stupid things, together, wishing to be with you, you
What are you afraid of? I mean it! What is that something that could turn you into this cold and insensible stone? Where are you? What have they done to you? Or maybe it isn’t their fault. Maybe it’s just you, letting me behind… But why would you do that? Why would you be so careless and mysterious with me? I used to be that someone you could talk to, about everything or anything. I don’t want to think that I’m not that person anymore. Because for me it haven’t changed anything. I feel the same way about you and us and all. I didn’t change. But you did! And I feel useless because I have to do nothing about it. Just wait and see what are you up to. And it isn’t right. It’s not fair for me, for you, for us… I don’t even know when we got here. Everything has changed so fast. We were so happy and the next minute everything was upside down. And in a bad way. And speaking of that, you promised me you will turn the world upside down for us, not that the world will upside down you. I miss us and you said that you miss us too. So do something! To be us again! I want you to try harder, to struggle with me, to get the things in their right way, like they used to be when we didn’t care about anything else but us. Let’s do something reckless. Let’s do something stupid. Let’s run in the rain, or sneak out and walk and tease each other and say stupid things and act childish. Let’s be happy again. Let’s break the rules together if that makes us happy. Let’s forget about the world and all the shit. Let’s do the little things. How we are supposed to do the big things, when we forget to do the little ones?
Snowing :)
21 Ian 2012 Scrie un comentariu
in Fără categorie Etichete:inceput, love, rece
Ninge… Fulgi de zapada… O tona de fulgi de zapada care ingheata orice urma de iubire, de tristete, de suparare, de indignare, de veselie. La primavara, cand s’ar fi dezghetat, fiecare urma ar fi disparut si s’ar fi printat altele noi, fiecare sentiment avand un nou inceput. Am intins palma, iar cativa fulgi se asezasera si erau intepati de fierbinteala mainii mele. Pufff ! S’au dus. Am zambit copilareste si mi’am retras mana. Micii ingerasi albi dansau destul de ritmic in atmosfera calma de weekend a orasului. Ramurile copacilor erau imbratisate de dragostea iernii si déjà se lasau in jos din cauza greutatii fulgilor de nea, ca o salcie curgatoare pe malul unui lac. Orasul imbatranise, cum obisnuiam sa cred inca de cand eram mica. Ii crescusera par alb, imaculat, si rece. Era o imagine de poveste, o alta poveste de iarna, o alta iarna dintr’un an nou cu inceputuri noi.
20 Ian 2012 Scrie un comentariu
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You’re hurting me… atat de nepasator… but it’s ok:) 
There with you…
03 Ian 2012 Scrie un comentariu
in Fără categorie Etichete:back, burn, feelings, fire, good, hug, kiss, love, new, paradise, soft, together, us
Fum. Oras. Aglomeratie. Lume. Nici nu se compara cu linistea paradisului in care am stat. Miros curat de padure, aer racoritor de munte, caldura focului din soba. Lemn. Miros intens de lemn imi invadeaza narile, ravasindu’mi fiecare amintire. Imi inchid ochii si trag adanc aer in piept. Inca iti mai simt mirosul. Te’ai infiripat cu totul in mine, in sufletul meu, in inima mea. Mintea mea iti imbratiseaza numele si amintirile pe care le am cu tine. Aproape ca pot sa te simt. Iti aud vocea, singurul sunet pe care mi’l doresc aproape in fiecare zi si noapte. Iti simt mainile incolacindu’se in jurul meu si pot sa’ti jur ca as opri timpul acum. Iti simt buzele fierbinti topindu’se intr’un sarut cu ale mele. O simpla atingere si toate rotitele inimii mi se pun in miscare.
Simti? Ceva magic pluteste in aer. Simti? Este creat de n
oi. Simti? Daca da, atunci obisnuieste’te cu asta, pentru ca asa o sa simti mereu.
Ma uit la tine, iar un sentiment ciudat mi se inteteste in tot corpul. Nu’ti dai seama. Dar privirea mea e alta. Existi doar tu. Pur si simplu esti tu. Si esti perfect. Si nu exagerez. Pentru ca esti perfect pentru mine. Fiecare gest, fiecare miscare, fiecare lucru pe care il faci este unic in ochii mei. N’am mai simtit asa ceva. As putea sa’mi imaginez atatea lucruri impreuna cu tine. Cu atata usurinta. Nu’mi pot explica nici mie. Esti centrul universului meu. Esti al meu.
New year… new me… new life :)
30 Dec 2011 Scrie un comentariu
in Fără categorie Etichete:another, change, love, me, myself, new year, schimbari, whole
I heard you’re a player. Nice to meet you,I’m the coach. 
Happy new year to everyone!
No way!
25 Dec 2011 Scrie un comentariu
in Fără categorie Etichete:dead, happiness, iubire, love, pleaca, te iubesc, traieste, us, you
What do you mea
n gone? Are you crazy? How can you tell me something like that? I’m sitting here with goose bumps and I’ve been shaking for an hour I can’t even comprehend something like that. You’re tied to me! No matter how suffocating and overwhelming that would sound. You can’t make a move without me. Everything that’s good in me belongs to you. Actually, I’m all yours. I can’t even imagine not seeing you anymore. We are two hearts beating in the same way and if something happens to yours, automatically mine would suffer as well. As I was saying you’re tied to me. I’ve been waiting you for so long and for how long you can’t even imagine. And finally when I found you do you really think I’m gonna let you get away from me? Don’t you even think about it! May this stay in your head that anywhere you go I’m coming with you. It might sound childish. Possible. But I cannot control what I feel. No matter how weak and vulnerable I might seem to be. But I don’t care! You matter! And me without you doesn’t make any sense.
Sarbatori :)
22 Dec 2011 Scrie un comentariu
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Happiness… happiness is all around… happiness… A fost o zi chiar draguta, daca stau sa ma gandesc bine. Toata lumea din jurul meu a ras, s’a simtit bine, fara certuri, fara tipete. Tocmai de aceea simt in sfarsit ca lucrurile merg bine si ma simt si eu impacata si happy, without faking my smile. Am fost chiar rasfatata cu o manechiura, pedichiura si, ma rog, niste cadouri in avans de Craciun. Vin sarbatorile, vin sarbatorile…
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Mi’am lasat geaca in cuier si m’am indreptat cu capul in jos spre salon. Ma rugam ca nimeni sa nu observe sau macar sa nu se holbeze. Era tot ce vroiam : sa nu se holbeze. Am traversat rapid holul si am intrat in salon, unde m’am asezat pe scaun. Ceva incepuse sa atarne din ce in ce mai greu la gatul meu, ca si cum cineva mi’ar fi legat un bolovan de gat. Mi’am indreptat spatele (proasta idee) si tocmai atunci trecuse cineva pe langa mine. Cristalele erau mangaiate intens de lumina din salon, facandu’le sa straluceasca cum nici macar un intreg magazin de bijuterii n’ar putea s’o faca. Erau ca un panou mare luminat de niste reflectoare uriase, si parca strigau „Uita’te la mine! Uita’te la mine!”
- Foarte frumos lantisor!
Am zambit timid, fara sa fac vreo remarca anume. Femeia inca se holba.
- Swarovski? Intreba ea.
- Da, am raspuns eu incet.
- Este superb, repeta ea.
Am zambit din nou, chinuindu’ma sa ma mentin dreapta. De data asta parca imi atarna un seif intreg de gat. Femeia parasi salonul si am respirat usurata. „N’a fost chiar atat de greu…” mi’am zis eu.
